Sunday, August 24, 2014

Gratitude for Family--(Unfinished & unedited thoughts that are not up to date)

My dad and I saw Wicked last week for our birthdays. Thanks to my Mom for thinking of us! Boy was the musical different than I had imagined--after all the hours I'd listened to the soundtrack! It's even better! I guess this abstract picture is a sort of tribute to that. It is kind of funny how something like this picture here can come out so different on paper (computer) than in my mind--just as in communication I suppose. It's pretty cool that what came out went along with the post though :) It's a better fit for the post than what I initially intended to draw :) Maybe one day I'll draw what I had in my mind. Maybe one day I'll design my blog space too :) This'll do for now though--it's enough to get me started.

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(My niece is writing this post with me. Every other word is hers. We're playing add on :) Sorry about not posting last week. This post should more than make up for it--once she and I are able to finish it...but she is in another state now so it may be a little while.)

My heart hurts every time my sister's visit ends. I love her and her family very much :)

Today was a special day though. My youngest brother gave a talk in sacrament meeting. He's leaving for two years to teach the gospel of Jesus Christ. I was really impressed by his talk and I wish him the best. I am amazed at how much I learn from my younger siblings, at how many talents they have in greater abundance than myself, and at how much I have to learn from them :) It really is a beautiful thing to discover others' strengths, beside your own, especially when they are hidden strengths--it is somewhat of a miracle to discover gifts not as easily perceived, though equally precious.

I don't know why I should be amazed. It is not as if older siblings have an advantage over their younger siblings in developing their talents. We all have unique talents, and we can all learn from each other. I have always admired my older siblings and loved them regardless of anything that might be considered a flaw. It was natural to look up to them and to learn from them, and still is. 

But for some reason I am always surprised at how much I learn from my younger siblings as well, as if I am not expecting to learn from them since they are younger than I. Silly isn't it? But if the hope is that the younger generation will supersede the older generation in wisdom and talent and whatnot, then perhaps it is natural to expect to be surprised by my younger siblings.

Of course there would be more to learn from my younger siblings, of course, and of course I will learn and continue to learn from them when least expected. Each and every one of my siblings has unique gifts and talents. I feel very blessed to have them in my life. I know we are all different, but I hope that love will conquer all, always. And with so many siblings, I hope that I will love everyone individually, and appreciate everyone uniquely without comparing strengths and weaknesses to any other sibling. I believe that is something I can improve on. In some ways I do a great job, but in other ways I am lacking.

With the family all together, we just are. And we are all wonderful together. As we go our own ways and progress on our own journeys through life our individualities become more distinguishable. We are our own individual entities, as well as a family entity. I hope I can be a support to all of my siblings (and parents) individually, as well as in the intermeshed family unit.

If you can't tell already, sometimes I spend a little too much time over analyzing :) It makes things interesting though.

I am grateful for my family, one of God's greatest gifts to me, aside from the blessing of His Son's life, and the Holy Ghost's influence in teaching me truth as I am willing/ready to receive it. And also for prophets past and present--for their individual and collective witnesses of Christ, for their examples of faith, and for their priesthood. I am grateful for the foundation I have been given. It is priceless, and there is no way I can repay. It is all worth it.