Tuesday, June 23, 2015


Dear Everyone, 

I wrote this post a couple weeks ago, but just never got the chance to share it with everyone. I'm sorry. School is taking precedence :)

Definition of Life: a) A perfect setting to learn forgiveness b) ... c) ... d) ...

I am learning a lot about life, and about Christ. I wish I were more like him, like, a lot more like him. His way of thinking is just so-different! It is so unnatural to me sometimes. 

Christians don't believe that emotions should rule them and really, to an extent, others would agree. For example "Thou shalt not kill." Well duh. Anger, et al. associated emotions are better dealt with in other ways. But "forgive men their trespasses"? 

For those who are wondering, the dictionary definition of trespass is to: 1) enter the owner's land or property without permission, 2) make unfair claims on or take advantage of something (or someone), and 3) commit an offense against a person or a set of rules. 

Ummm ... there are an increasing number of ways for people to trespass nowadays and I am sorta not the most naturally forgiving person to those that would trespass, say, to get into my computer or phone, or say, my room or car. Emotional trespassing, yeah no, though I can't say I'm always free of fault. Umm. Let's see what else .. idk the list could go on and on and on and on.

I hate trespassing though. I hate everything about it. How it makes me so angry. And paranoid. And anxious. And yet. I am to forgive. Or rather, I have an opportunity to forgive, to learn how to forgive, and why I might want to forgive (as I would tell my nieces and nephews :) Such is the purpose of this life, well, one of the purposes of living in this world-at least according to my beliefs. How can you learn how to forgive in a perfect world? I don't really have anything inspiring to say about that other than that I am learning, if that's inspiring. 

I wish I were more like Christ, but I still have a lot to learn before I'll be able to stop holding grievances. I think part of my venom (yes my venom, my own bitter feelings about it, that I will take responsibility for), I think part of it is from my fear. Perhaps as I learn to trust God more I will loosen up and turn the other cheek, et al., instead of praying for revenge lol Yes. I did use to pray for that. Not in awhile, I hope :) But yeah. Now I pray to repent, or in other words to change, so that I will want to forgive instead of imagining up mean things to say to potential trespassers, or imagining up some type of just recompense. I think I've made some progress but I still have a long way to go!

This post was inspired by Matthew 6:14-15. I know I have these weaknesses, but Christ specifically points them out in these verses:

14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.

I'm not very good at forgiving yet, but I'm working on it. Some day I'll understand it. Some beautiful day <3
Have a great week everyone and good luck with everything!

Matthew Chapter 6

Jesus continues the Sermon on the Mount—He teaches the disciples the Lord’s Prayer—They are commanded to seek first the kingdom of God and His righteousness.
 Take heed that ye do not your alms before men, to be seen of them: otherwise ye have no reward of your Father which is in heaven.
 Therefore when thou doest thine alms, do not sound a trumpet before thee, as the hypocrites do in the synagogues and in the streets, that they may have glory of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.
 But when thou doest alms, let not thy left hand know what thy right hand doeth:
 That thine alms may be in secret: and thy Father which seeth in secret himself shall reward thee openly.
 ¶And when thou prayest, thou shalt not be as the hypocrites are: for they love to pray standing in the synagogues and in the corners of the streets, that they may be seen of men. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.
 But thou, when thou prayest, enter into thy closet, and when thou hast shut thy door, pray to thy Father which is in secret; and thy Father which seeth in secret shall reward thee openly.
 But when ye pray, use not vain repetitions, as the heathen do: for they think that they shall be heard for their much speaking.
 Be not ye therefore like unto them: for your Father knoweth what things ye have need of, before ye ask him.
 After this manner therefore pray ye: Our Father which art in heaven, Hallowed be thy name.
 10 Thy kingdom come. Thy will be done in earth, as it is in heaven.
 11 Give us this day our daily bread.
 12 And forgive us our debts, as we forgive our debtors.
 13 And lead us not into temptation, but deliver us from evil: For thine is the kingdom, and the power, and the glory, for ever. Amen.
 14 For if ye forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you:
 15 But if ye forgive not men their trespasses, neither will your Father forgive your trespasses.
 16 ¶Moreover when ye fast, be not, as the hypocrites, of a sad countenance: for they disfigure their faces, that they may appear unto men to fast. Verily I say unto you, They have their reward.
 17 But thou, when thou fastest, anoint thine head, and wash thy face;
 18 That thou appear not unto men to fast, but unto thy Father which is in secret: and thy Father, which seeth in secret, shall reward thee openly.
 19 ¶Lay not up for yourselves treasures upon earth, where moth and rust doth corrupt, and where thieves break through and steal:
 20 But lay up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where neither moth nor rust doth corrupt, and where thieves do not break through nor steal:
 21 For where your treasure is, there will your heart be also.
 22 The light of the body is the eye: if therefore thine eye be single, thy whole body shall be full of light.
 23 But if thine eye be evil, thy whole body shall be full of darkness. If therefore the light that is in thee be darkness, how great is that darkness!
 24 ¶No man can serve two masters: for either he will hate the one, and love the other; or else he will hold to the one, and despise the other. Ye cannot serve God and mammon.
 25 Therefore I say unto you, Take no thought for your life, what ye shall eat, or what ye shall drink; nor yet for your body, what ye shall put on. Is not the life more than meat, and the body than raiment?
 26 Behold the fowls of the air: for they sow not, neither do they reap, nor gather into barns; yet your heavenly Father feedeth them. Are ye not much better than they?
 27 Which of you by taking thought can add one cubit unto his stature?
 28 And why take ye thought for raiment? Consider the lilies of the field, how they grow; they toil not, neither do they spin:
 29 And yet I say unto you, That even Solomon in all his glory was not arrayed like one of these.
 30 Wherefore, if God so clothe the grass of the field, which to day is, and to morrow is cast into the oven, shall he not much more clothe you, O ye of little faith?
 31 Therefore take no thought, saying, What shall we eat? or, What shall we drink? or, Wherewithal shall we be clothed?
 32 (For after all these things do the Gentiles seek:) for your heavenly Father knoweth that ye have need of all these things.
 33 But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you.
 34 Take therefore no thought for the morrow: for the morrow shall take thought for the things of itself. Sufficient unto the day is the evil thereof.