Sunday, October 30, 2016

What would 'their' advocate say?

Question of the day--
What would 'their' advocate say?
All wrapped in defense;
Advocating your own sense.
But your judge is covered
And you, will you be your own judge?

But what of the other--
Left on their own?
Is it fair to take cover
And leave them to mourn?

Must you look in?
Must you look on?
You must let go of you
To let go of wrong.

Where is your advocate
In light of day or dark night?
But where is the others'
In this two-sided plight?

That you don't know
'Till you give up your own.
It's so easy to scorn
When you're already torn.

Wednesday, October 12, 2016


This one is a work in progress. It kind of looks like she has mittens on. :)

I drew this lady and the last drawings while watching a General Women's Conference. It amazed me that drawing actually enhanced my listening. :) I forget that one of the reasons I love art is that it's one of the best mediums for multitasking. I'd surely be done with all of the classics by now if I had majored in art. :) It's a good break from my more mentally consuming tasks. And, each piece is in itself a special reward. It's really beautiful to see what life takes shape from the figurative pencil. 

Monday, July 25, 2016


The 24th of July is a holiday in Utah. The holiday celebrates the pioneers who established this beautiful place so many years back. I love it!

When I was a little girl I often didn't connect with the pioneer stories I would hear in church meetings and activities. They were too far distant to me. I probably connected the most with my great some-odd-great grandmother's story--not that I related at all to her story but I guess I appreciated her more than the others because she was mine <3

I have enough life experience now to appreciate others' pioneer stories better. It seems that the one thing that every pioneer has in common is belief--belief that what they are after is worth what it takes to get there--even if what's sought is just experience. This brings up a whole slew of thoughts because, even for those who don't believe in God or in a spiritual existence, experience is what we're all after--experience of one sort or another. And belief in the value of experience is essential for life and growth. Wow.

Happy Pioneer Day everyone <3

Tuesday, July 19, 2016


I am encompassed about, because of the temptations and the sins which do so easily beset me. ... nevertheless, I know in whom I have trusted. My God hath been my support; he hath led me through mine afflictions in the wilderness; and he hath preserved me upon the waters of the great deep.

He hath filled me with his love, ... Behold, he hath heard my cry by day, and he hath given me knowledge by visions in the night-time. And by day have I waxed bold in mighty prayer before him; yea, my voice have I sent up on high; and angels came down and ministered unto me.

O Lord, I have trusted in theeand I will trust in thee forever. I will not put my trust in the arm of flesh; for I know that cursed is he that putteth his trust in the arm of flesh. Yea, cursed is he that putteth his trust in man or maketh flesh his arm.

Yea, I know that God will give liberally to him that asketh. Yea, my God will give me, if I ask not amiss; therefore I will lift up my voice unto thee; yea, I will cry unto thee, my God, the rock of my righteousness. Behold, my voice shall forever ascend up unto thee, my rock and mine everlasting God. Amen.

Wherefore, I knowing that the Lord God was able to ____________, I cried unto him continually, for he had said unto me: Whatsoever thing ye shall ask in faith, believing that ye shall receive in the name of Christ, ye shall receive it.

Tuesday, June 14, 2016

Divine Nature: The Rule of 70 x 7

Then came Peter to him, and said, Lord, how oft shall my brother sin against me, and I forgive him? till seven times? Jesus saith unto him, I say not unto thee, Until seven times: but, Until seventy times seven. 
Matthew 18: 21-22

The rule of 70 x 7, to forgive seventy times seven, is such a motivating rule for the sinner because what it does is it gives the sinner seventy times seven (plus) opportunities to repent. I don't know about you but I begin to feel a little sheepish after the first or second mistake. I don't like to waste others' time by going back to make amends again and's easier to just let it go, accept defeat, and move on--without even saying sorry because heck, what would sorry mean to the other person anyway at that point? But seventy times seven. Wow! Even if the other person doesn't respect your remorse, God does. It's a command to never give up on yourself, even when you feel you have no reason to expect someone else to forgive you or to hope to make amends--it is a command to repent anyway, that you may be forgiven of God, that you may be freed, and feel His grace.

How hopeful a command! Others may give up on you but come what may--whatever judgment anyone else may have to dish out--you are not to give up on yourself because God has not, and He is no respecter of persons. 

It gives me courage to repent when I feel like by my standards, or someone else's, the cause is already lost. But the seventy times seven rule is a command to not accept defeat. No matter how annoying you may think it may be to the other person in the relationship, God has give you permission to keep on trying--you don't need the other person's permission, only God's. How amazing is that?! To have a relationship with someone who will never, ever, give up on you, no matter what anyone else may think. No matter how annoying or 'failed' you are or feel, He expects you to keep repenting, keep 'annoying' others you offend with contrite offers for recompense, seventy times seven times. That's mind-blowing to me. 

If you have His permission it doesn't really matter what others think of you anymore, or what they don't think of you for that matter. What matters is what He thinks of you. All He asks is that you live by the seventy times seven rule. Sounds fair to me. 

I'll take God's grace over man's judgment any day. I'm willing to suffer man's judgment if it means I can experience God's grace and lift off some weight. I'll pay whatever consequence man has to dig out for me to live in His grace.  


I learned the 70 x 7 rule for sinners a month or so ago. I knew it was time to change but didn't know how--until I came across the scripture and saw its application for the sinner. That gave me all the motivation and courage I needed to confront myself--to openly, albeit gracefully and even cheerfully, accept my shame. It's a good thing too because I had a list I'd worked up that I was just too prideful to go through up to that point. If you're already in the dump how do you protect yourself from ruining your reputation even more with a friend, family member or colleague? By not saying anything. But when you live by the seventy times seven rule you stop protecting yourself and give others power to rub it in and/or respond in whatever way they want. When you live by the seventy times seven rule you are real with others, you allow them to see your humanness, and you leave the rest in God's capable hands--come what may. And then, you're free! 

One of the funnier sins on my list was holding onto friends' books for years on end--books that I haven't made time to read and felt too ashamed to give back before reading, and so I just let time slip, feeling bad for not returning their books. I've mailed off a couple books now and have more to deliver lol. When I borrowed the books I was neighbors with those friends :) 

I am actually starting to enjoy facing the fear of repenting when I am afraid of judgment. When I begin to fear the person's reaction and/or punishment I think of the seventy times seven rule and remember that God's got my back. Instead of dreading confrontation I look forward to the relief I know I'll receive. 

I am grateful for the courage to see myself as I really am (the good and the bad), for friends who inspire me to do so <3, and I am grateful for the scriptures that help me understand God and myself better, and my relationship with others. Life is such a gift! 

Friday, April 29, 2016

This guy is amateur as you can tell, but he makes me smile :)

It's been awhile since I've posted, and since I've shared a sketch - I haven't sketched much, and I've been writing more for myself these past few months :) I hope you've all been well!

Sunday, March 20, 2016

Questions in the Margins

I'm rereading a book on the life and work, or mission, of Karl G. Maeser--second president of Brigham Young University. The first read was but a skim and I thought it deserved a better read. 

I've pulled one or two quotes out for repeat in previous posts. I thought it would be interesting this time to share some thoughts in the margin of the section: "Teach All Subjects by the Spirit of God."

I think I can sum my questions in the margin into just one question though: Is a positive 'relational' purpose part of the criteria of personal worthiness of the Spirit of God? 

I may leave this open-ended. Or I may explore it with you next week--I'm just a student too. It's interesting to think about though, either way.

Have a good week everyone <3

Wednesday, February 24, 2016

Surrogate God-Fathers & Priesthood Blessings

I don't have a lot of time to be posting in the morning, but there is something really sweet and beautiful that I just want to share.

I am really grateful for priesthood blessings. I actually want to share something specific about one of the blessings I have received and am grateful for, but I can't really do that without first explaining what priesthood blessings are because I know that not everybody is familiar with the term <3

To understand the priesthood you have to understand God as the Father of everyone's spirits--you know, the thing that's missing when someone dies--basically the life of the body because without it the body is just dust. The priesthood, then, is God's power, and His authority to act on His behalf for his children when he can't be physically present himself. Blessings are basically prayers. So priesthood blessings are prayers, offered on others' behalf, by men that God calls to act in his behalf when he can't be physically present.

It's really cool to think about. It's like having surrogate God-fathers :) I've never thought of it that way before but it makes my heart happy to think about. Maybe it's because I have a step-dad that I appreciate this so much. I'm really grateful for my step-dad, and for the surrogate role he plays in my life. A surrogate is not the same as the real thing, that's for sure, making for some biological and spiritual awkwardness, but it's something and it's better than nothing. And it just goes to show how important the role of Father is, and how much He loves us to provide us with surrogate God-fathers <3 Yep that makes my heart happy. <3 <3 <3

I know my biological father is grateful to my step-father for the surrogate role he has taken as my dad. Yeah he knows that they're different people (totally different) and they do things differently, have different opinions about stuff, different personalities, dispositions, etc., but my biological father knows that my step-father is a good man and that he loves us. He doesn't love us perfectly (who does?) but he loves us and would do anything for us, and that's what matters. It's kind of strange. I've never thought of my step-dad acting on my biological father's behalf before, but in a way, that's exactly what it is.

I imagine it's somewhat similar with Heavenly Father and our surrogate God-Fathers. Yeah they have different dispositions and whatnot, but that's to be expected. What's important is that their purpose is the same--to love us and to help us feel God's love. Wow. That's just amazing.


(I have a dozen or so half-baked entries in my 'unpublished' pile. I don't want this one to get lost among those so I'm publishing what I have so that I'll have the incentive to come back and finish it before long :)

Sunday, February 21, 2016

Learning how to be a student

I've been thinking about what it means to be a student, and how one approaches learning the restored gospel of Jesus Christ via the role of a student versus as a teacher/leader. I realized this morning that to be a disciple, really, is just to be a student.

For all my life I've had it flip flopped. I saw discipleship as a form of leadership--which it is, I guess, if one learns how to be an 'exemplar' student. But what does it mean to be a student? My questions began last week when a lady in my Sunday School class asked a "Do you think" question instead of sharing an "I think" statement. I decided to try a do you think question too and wow. It revolutionized the way I think about teaching and learning. I've been so focused on leadership I think I've missed a few things. My new goal is to learn what it means to be a student, and what the Savior taught about how to be a student/disciple.

I prefer to identify myself as a student rather than a teacher. It's less stressful. I don't have to be perfect. I can mess up, like a lot, and still feel safe as long as I'm trying to learn from my mistakes and not play the scapegoat blaming games--projecting my own faults and failings on other people, things, and situations. I can own my imperfectness and embrace my role as student. Heck, that's why a student's a student. We have lots of room to grow and we know it, so we do something about it :)

Sunday, January 31, 2016

The Family


"In the family circle is to be found everything that is highest and most sacred for the people and for the poor. It is the benign influence of the family circle which alone can help the people and it is this aid which is today most urgently needed. . . . From the moral and religious point of view the tie which binds father, mother and children is at the same time the source of all views and feelings which lead man through faith and love to all that is exalted and eternal, and prepares him in the earthly enjoyment of the love of father and mother for sonship with God, and through the obedience of faith in father and mother, exalts him to the obedience of faith in God."

~Johann Pestalozzi, 
Swiss Educational Reformer

Lewis Flint Anderson, ed., citing "Pestalozzi's address on his 72nd birthday (January 12, 1818)," Pestalozzii (Westport, CT: Greenwood Press, 1974), 142-44.

Thursday, January 28, 2016

She's a little messy, just a quickie drawing, but she's cute :)

Monday, January 25, 2016